Hopeless and frightened, terror suspect Mohamed Harkat likens this week's Federal Court decision to uphold the security certificate that has kept him locked up for 27 months without charge to a death sentence. "I feel now just like somebody blocked my life. Took my life away," he told the Sun yesterday during an interview at the Ottawa-Carleton Detention Centre. "I see it like it's at the end of my story." His body trembling more and more as he spoke of his hearing and the allegations against him, Harkat struggled to fight back tears. "(Tuesday) I never slept. I cried all night in my bed," he said from behind the Plexiglas barrier. "I just feel like my brain is not working anymore. "Before I thought about getting out and starting to build myself and coming back and catching up with what I left 21/2 years ago ... I miss my family. I miss my wife. Now I'm just disappointed. I'm just waiting for what's next."Suspected of ties to Osama bin Laden's terror network, Harkat came to the attention of Canadian authorities when he entered Canada through London, England, using a false passport. He was arrested in December 2002 after the then solicitor general and immigration minister signed a security certificate. Harkat said he learned of Federal Court Justice Eleanor Dawson's decision to uphold the security certificate, which paves the way for deportation to his native Algeria, from his wife Sophie Tuesday. Based extensively on confidential information not released to Harkat or his lawyers, the judge said Harkat lied under oath about such things as knowingly supporting Islamic extremists in Canada and abroad, associating with accused terrorist Abu Zubaydah, being in Afghanistan and living in Peshawar. 'I JUST WANT JUSTICE'

Harkat said he just wants a chance to properly defend himself, but said he's lost faith in Canada's justice system. "I just want justice. I'd like to see all the evidence. Everything that was behind closed doors," he said, noting he's terrified of being sent back to Algeria, where his entire family remains totally clueless as to his current situation. "They're going to kill me in Algeria for sure. "How she ruled against me I can't imagine... The judge doesn't take my life serious." 'SLAP IN THE FACE'

Sobbing uncontrollably and somewhat lost for words, Sophie told reporters yesterday she was also "outraged" by the decision and promised to continue her fight. "The decision was truly a slap in the face as we were all very confident that my husband was going to return home with us and that justice was going to prevail," she said. "Once again, we were shown how unfair and appalling the entire system is." She described breaking the news to her husband as her "toughest" task since this whole ordeal began. "He came to Canada to have a better life, but instead is living a nightmare and being detained indefinitely without charge." Though she's said before that she would go to Algeria with her husband should he be deported, Sophie said that would pose a major risk to her own safety and noted the fight is far from over anyway. Besides plans to appeal to the Supreme Court of Canada on constitutional grounds, efforts are also underway to have the security certificate process abolished. Harkat could also fight deportation based on the risk that being deported might result in torture or death. tobi dot cohen at ott dot sunpub dot com Copyright © 2005, Canoe Inc. All rights reserved.